My Story

Our stories are ever evolving. Each day we learn something new about ourselves and the people around us. Most days we are completely unaware of it.  Until God knocks us upside the head to wake up! I had been unaware of what God was trying to do through me until just a few months ago.

Obsessed with the unhappiness I was feeling at work, I tried every avenue to escape it.  I thought the solution was to find my own way out. I could start my own business, be a photographer, a craft maker, a stay-at-home mom, work part time, start a blog, be a virtual assistant, work at a flower shop, go into ministry, go back to teaching… anything and everything that seemed more attractive than my current situation was a possible option to me.

I wanted to use my abilities, talents, relationships, networks and passions to fulfill my own idea of what I thought a ‘good’ job and life looked like. But as God typically does in my life – He knows me better. After many tears, pleads and arguments with God, I could hear that He was asking me to submit my job to Him. It was clear to me that leaving my current work situation wasn’t going to happen. I needed a change of heart. I listened to many podcast sermons and worship songs. Had many long talks with my husband and close girlfriends. All were destined to help change my attitude about work. I began to view work as an opportunity to share the good news of Jesus Christ with my friends and co-workers. It was my new mission field.

When the obsession and struggle of work became less of a priority in my life (it still flares up from time to time!), God was then able to begin working in my heart to bring back my true desires and passions for life. A few years ago I dreamt of taking on more leadership in the church in regards to women’s ministry. I had led a women’s small group before and loved it. I felt the need to plug my interests, hobbies and passions into something that could be used to bring God glory rather than my own personal happiness.

A recent message at church on God’s vision for our lives confirmed to me that I needed to move in the direction of starting a new kind of women’s ministry. My personal experiences and knowledge of women’s ministry were old school. I imagine my grandmother and her friends quilting on a Saturday morning while someone reads passages of scripture from a King James Bible….

I began to daydream about what a real and relevant women’s ministry would look like in our culture today. I spoke with friends and co-workers and shared my ideas. All seemed eager and desperate for a place to connect with other women and with God. With all the pressures and busyness in our lives I felt that a traditional weekly group would hinder some from coming and be awkward for someone who hadn’t been involved with something like this before.

I don’t know a single girl who doesn’t love a good blog. Especially a cute one! I don’t know all of the details of what Gray Tuesday will become, but I will step toward what I do know today.

I am so excited and eager to begin the journey of Gray Tuesday. I look back on the 5 years I’ve spent working in my current job and can see all the things I’ve learned, skills I’ve gained and relationships God has built. All of it is part of the story that God continues to write and shape as part of Gray Tuesday ministries.

I am expecting my God to do big and incredible things. Lives will be changed, marriages restored, relationships strengthened, broken hearts to be mended, freedom proclaimed, comfort, beauty, joy and praise restored!

Will you join me?!

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